Thursday, November 13, 2014

Welcome To Morbis By Design

I knew from a very early age that I was different. Back in Kindergarten I remember vividly hording my black and red crayons, because I didn't want to run out. I felt best when my clothes stood out from the norm, gravitating towards the darker colors and shunning bright “happy” tones.

As I grew up and was introduced to things such as spiders, webs, skulls, witches, chains, spikes, all of it, I felt compelled and drawn to surround myself with them. The Internet brought a deeper sense that something was missing and offered to fill that need with a plethora of information and inspiration. I learned to read when the Internet was young, the dictionary being my go to for entertainment, and I learned the power of words. Some that sang to me at that young age and still follow me today include: abhor, abattoir, abbey, morbid, taboo, decay, rot, death, decompose and the list goes on.

In middle school, search engines allowed me to learn even more, and a new word brought me to my place of ultimate personal power: Gothic. And there was no turning back. Couple this internal research with a supportive and equally unorthodox mother, and I had discovered who I really was, my personal identity.

High school was easy, in regards to maintaining who I was. Oh, I was ridiculed and outcast, but my knowledge of myself carried me through. Early adulthood brought it all crashing down as societal norms and conventions banned my identity from the work force. And a deep depression took over.

Today, I've rediscovered myself and have learned that the identity that carried me through adolescence still holds extreme power, and I've resolved to make it work in a conservative world. I know there are many others who share similar tastes, if not equal struggles. It is my goal that this blog can serve as a guide to help those drawn to the taboo, and alternate cultures, succeed in a conservative society without sacrificing their identity. Because no one should give up who they are for ANY reason.

Over the coming weeks, I'll be posting how to do this, as well as other valuable information into the taboo, the morbid, the different, and the delightful that is being Morbis By Design.

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